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silence returned.
19:57 Jun 17 2006
Times Read: 553

What you see befor you

is a face that looks at ease

happy in this loud mouthed world

where everthings a breeze.



when all i want is silence

peace within my mind

but when i look into myself

loneliness is all i find.



not the quietness of easy thought

or the peace of happy place

just the compressing weight of solitude

in an ever decreasing space.



i don't want to run away

from the world and all thats in it

i just want a quiet time.



but each time that i am alone

it's not in the way that i need

i feel the emptiness growing

on my paranoia it feeds



al i want is silence

in this world so full of sound

not the feeling of solitude

or the empyiness to which im bound



but don't cry out your heart for me

cuz when everything is said

i will get my silence...

when i am truly dead.

silence...
19:48 Jun 17 2006
Times Read: 554

I seek the silence of sleep

a place within my mind

where all the days problems

are left so far behind.



but though i close my eyes

the pain is never lost

I lay and think of everything

and try to count the cost.



oh how i wish for one clear night

to settle in my bed

but the voice reminds me

you can sleep forever when your dead.



so my mind it keeps on turning

twisting thoughts around

so much, that i long for

the bed that lies underground.

lost.....
04:47 Jun 16 2006
Times Read: 560




Will I ever find my one true love?

Do you believe there is such?

I've reached out on a long search

But never close enough to touch

Couldn't find anyone to hold me

Lost in nothing but my dreams

Everyone I loved was false

I said screw my self-esteem



Is love just something you say

To get what you want

Because real love is fake

You say the three words

So that you can come and take

Whatever you want



All I ever wanted was someone

To tell me she would be there

To have that special felling

But no one ever seemed to care

It disgusts me that my one lady

Never came to cure my loathing

It's over now no one to stop me

Watch my dead limp body floating



Is love just something you say

To get what you want

Because real love is fake

You say the three words

So that you can come and take

Whatever you want



A fisherman finds and pulls it in

Still blood red from dripping wounds

Watch me on the ten o'clock news

Maybe my love will find me soon

pleasure and lust.
04:45 Jun 16 2006
Times Read: 561

All day I picture curves arching under me

Dripping the sweat of passion, the heat

Jeering at the bodies we use to strain for pleasure

Equaled by no other. We quest together for the

Coolness and calmness that follows it.

Tonight I must make this image into reality.

I cannot live on images. Sustenance craves

Veritability of pleasure, not phantoms of fever.

Each moment stretches into eternity; I

Long to run my hand down the spine, cup

Each buttock in turn, lick a line of

Shivers along the spine hiding behind you.

Soon I will make love to you.

emptiness..and obscuirty.
04:42 Jun 16 2006
Times Read: 563

This sensation that I'm feeling is something new for me,

Never before have I faced such numbing obsurity,

The thunder clouds are formed out along the bay, the darkness in my heart will not leave today. I roll with the pointlessness of existing in this way each ticking second that scratches by gnaws my soul away.

The path I'm on right now is swallowed by the black, up ahead there's nothing but worse I can't go back. Each new day that dawns is the same as the last there's nothing here but emptiness as I move further down the path. Where are all the people that I used to know? Why aren't they walking with me, where did they all go?

rambleings.
04:36 Jun 16 2006
Times Read: 564

Reaching through the blackness

Trying to find something to hold

When all I could feel

Was the harsh damp cold

Desperately trying to block out

The emotions that poison my soul

I lay slowly suffocating

Beneath the rubble of my broken dreams

As silent tears spill from my eyes

Mouthing hollow prayers with Vodka soaked lips

This echoless silence is driving me insane.

A NEW LIFE BEGINS.
00:15 Jun 13 2006
Times Read: 577

the shadows have stayed inside of my heart,

its tough to move on when it all falls apart.



but i strive to get up and lift up my head,

though inside my soul is tearing and dead.



but for them i stand tall and try and be strong,

as we pick up the peices and just move along.



for they are my life my blood is our bond,

and for them alone my hear shall always be fond.

THE SCARS FROM WITH IN.
00:14 Jun 13 2006
Times Read: 578

Once i was happy befor all my sins,

no one there to stop me befor i began,

the metal so cold as it touches my flesh,

my suffering and pain now bleed and mesh.



I am sorry this ache is so deep inside,

it wont go away....beleive me ive tried.

so i cut and i scratch and mark out the pain,

and then can relax till it all starts again.



each liveing day is marked on my skin,

layer upon layer of all kinds of sins.

each little scar so faded and plain,

all are there from the surrering pain.

(english version) thank you my love.
18:59 Jun 10 2006
Times Read: 584

I love you forever my king,

i will fill you with kisses,

we are together forever in the shadows,

keep me between your arms,

kiss me and tell me you love me,

you are forever mine my love,

i crave you like a drug,

and want to hold you forever.

you are very sweet my love,

i want to feel it all inside me,

yes harder my love,

enjoy me more.

grazie amore mio!
18:44 Jun 10 2006
Times Read: 586

ti amo per sempre mio re,

ti coprirei di baci,

noi staremo insieme sempre nele omdre,

stringimi forte fra le tue braccia,

baciami e dimmi che mi ami,

tu sarai per sempre mio amore,

ti desidero come una droga,

e voglio tenerti per sempre.

sel molto dolce mio amore,

voglio sentirlo tutto dentro,

si forte mio amore.

fammi godere di piu'.